So I'm updating for the first time in about a year
'Cause Shannon wants me to lol.

Going back to where I left off last time...
I went out with Joe for a while,
We broke up.
I was single up until December 27th,
Which is when a boy named David and I started going out.
He eventually became emotionally abusive
We were together for about 8 months,
Well, off and on for that last month.

Anyway,
He obsessed over me for a while,
Stalked me at work too x.x

Now I'm with that boy Josh
Though he's not really a boy since he's two years older than me lol.
He.is.amazing
I call him Joshy, he calls me Jules.
Pretty damn sure he's not rebound from David either.
Joshy was kinda worried about that...he's so cute.
But I've had rebound before and assured him that he wasn't :]]

Mike, Avery, Joshy, and I all went boating/tubing/swimming for Labor Day.
It was fucking awesomeee :D
My first time boating and tubing too haha.
I actually got a little burn from that [we were out from morning till 6pm].
I don't burn.
So of course I didn't bother with sunscreen...and now...
Even my chest is slightly burnt XD

Josh is so sweet *dreamy sigh*
He sends me a text every night to say "Good night Jules!"
&& I'll text him every morning to say "Good morning Joshy!"
What's kinda funny is that sometimes
When we hang out at the Japanese garden,
I think he wants to tell me that he loves me or something...
'Cause he'll just look at me a certain way
&& I dunno how to describe it really.
Anyway, I'll just ask him "what?" and he'll say "nothing"
Which of course makes me think that a lil more.
&& I'll say "nothing means something" and he'll just tell me
How pretty/beautiful I am *melts*
Hell, sometimes I want to say those three words to him.
I dunno why, really, I mean...
We've only been going out for...about a week now,
But our chemistry together is so great it's is ridiculous!
Honestly though...
I almost blurt it out whenever we have a moment together.
Like when we were at the park and threw away
The jewelry David gave me into the lake,
&& then cuddled while watching the sun set over it.
Also other times where we're just kinda cuddling or something;
I really do want to say it.
But then I don't because I feel it's somewhat ridiculous to say it,
Especially so early on in the relationship.
&& I don't want it to spoil what we have right now...
If it would spoil anything that is,
Which it probably wouldn't...but still.
Best not to take any un-needful chances.

Heh,
Today actually we were talking about the whole rebound thing.
'Cause he had talked to a friend about it.
He asked me if he was rebound...
&& also said that he hopes he isn't
'Cause he "really, really, really likes [me]" as he put it
I assured him that he wasn't
&& told him that I liked him a lot too
[good substitute for the three words, eh?].

My mother likes him a lot :D
The only other guy that I've dated that she's ever liked was Jeremy.
So yeahh :3

Not much else to say, really.
Got hired at Best Buy back in July;
Doing PSEO at Normandale [free college and textbooks!]
I'll be back at the high school the last half of the year though.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the o n e
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too f a r , was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off w i t h o u t you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the p i e c e s .
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my h e a r t back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the m e m o r i e s down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could s a y .
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others o p e n e d up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you n e v e r were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off w i t h o u t you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the p i e c e s .
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my h e a r t back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off w i t h o u t you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off w i t h o u t you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the p i e c e s .
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my h e a r t back together.
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

~Daughtry <3